After my 2nd surgery, I was in a really bad state mentally. I was not OK with what had happened to me, the way I was treated, or how I was supposed to “let it go.” I didn’t know how to get out of the toxic anger spiral on my own, so I went for some professional help. For me, that was hypnotherapy.
It had worked well for me in the past (dealing with limiting beliefs and identity issues around my diabetes), and WOW there was a lot of rage and sadness to unpack – but I felt 1000% better afterwards. I can’t explain how it works, but tapping into the subconscious to get at the root of difficult feelings and finding peace within is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself. We spend so much of our lives at the mercy of the stories we tell ourselves about whatever it is that has happened to us, and when you can change that narrative to take your power back, that changes everything.
Every person copes differently, and there is no set timeline for when you can start to feel better. The physical part is only one aspect of the healing process, but I believe in the mind-body-spirit connection, and getting your head & heart right are important for overall well-being and establishing a “new normal” to get on with living again.
Whatever it takes to clear out negative and toxic energy, I say do it! And if you can enlist some professional help, I think that can go a long way to find the ground beneath your feet again when everything else feels like it’s out of your control. Don’t underestimate the grief and anger associated with losing the future you thought you were going to have – not necessarily in a morbid way, but just that there’s a new element to contend with and your reality is different now. You will never be the same person again. There will forever be a piece of you that feels at least a little bit “broken”. It’s not fair, and it’s not OK. But it is possible to re-frame your thoughts, which in turn will impact your feelings, and that will impact the energy and vibration of your cells.
Dig deep. Go there. And consider this timeless wisdom from Leonard Cohen:
“There is a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.”
Wishing you the kind of healing nobody can see and only you can feel.